October 29, 2008 @10:53 PM
Arggh!!! I am sooo pissed!!!
Who we are as persons today is often influenced by our past experiences. I just have to let it out that I extremely detest my father. Harsh? Not really, if you know the man. He is actually not a bad father. I'm sure there are worse dads out in the earth.
Anyway, one quote that fits this post is "The best thing a man can do for his children is to love their mother." Apparently, he does not. Ugh. He hits her and throws things at her. Admittedly, the physical abuse did lessen over the years. But recently, whenever he gets in his *moods* (which is about once in a week) he gets really violent. Whenever he manages to control violent outbursts, he just verbally abuses her with curse words (in front of their 3 kids, and the housekeeper), demeaning statements (the asshole really sucks). AND he displaces his anger by hurting the dog. (I'm also an animal lover and hate people who abuse animals with a passion!)
I used to write down his physical and verbal altercations with mom on pieces of paper and kept them under my drawer. Unfortunately, I threw all of it out when I was cleaning out my drawer because it was an unusually good month at our house.
The bad thing is, my sister exploded (not literally 
) when mom and dad were fighting. She shouted that she hates dad because he's SUCH a bad father. And I said, actually, it's more of a BAD HUSBAND. My mom was telling my sister to stop. I believe it's stupid and fits into the abused wife stereotype. They protect their husbands and believe they can change. I don't.
I just wish he would just GO already. Change or die, dad. (I already said I believe he won't change) Right now, mom does not have what it takes to leave him.
Hopefully, someday we will get to have peaceful lives.
P.S. I know that not all guys are like this.
Music: parents arguing
Mood: angry and pissed as hell
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